Shock

You know when you feel SO utterly powerless that there is NOTHING you can do to make things ok? When all you can do is just SIT THERE dumbfounded. When you know that nothing you say can turn back time, and make things better. When ALL you have to give are words but all that is needed is a HUG. When you feel like someone reached in and took your heart in their fist are started to squeeze it. You feel breathless and weak and utterly lost. 

And the worst part is that, if YOU are feeling this way, you can only imagine how much MORE the one who is actually going through it might be feeling, and that thought just makes you realise how insignificant your own feelings are... 

I'm ready to sell my soul for a ticket out of here, to just be able to give a hug, to sit there in silence watching the smoke from each of our cigarettes swirl and intermingle in the air like acrobats performing their art in the circus tent... 

Je t'aime my OSM.