Sunday, November 2, 2008

Naughty or nice...

On friday night I had a conversation that is very vague in my mind (due to the amounts of beer consumed) about what sort of person i am...

The one who i was having the conversation with didn't really know me very well. We had met out a few times, and we've talked a bit. But he didn't really know me enough to judge me on what sort of person i am. But somehow we got into this conversation about how he thinks that i'm not nice! He didn't mean it in a way that i was cruel but that i was more funky and weird and naughty that downright NICE! The conversation was interesting because I had just introduced new boy to the bunch of people i go out with, and he obviously is VERY NICE! So this particular guy at one point in the conversation, i think, told me that i shouldn't be with new boy cuz he seems really nice and that i'm not that nice! Of course when he said that, i agreed that i'm probably not the nicest or the sweetest person out there, but i think i deserve a nice guy like new boy and then i walked over and kissed new boy (which was my way of saying HA! SEE? I'm with him watever u say!)
But later on in the night i had told new boy that i'm not that nice... So obviously this conversation about how naughty or nice i am really struck me.
I don't consider myself an angel, nor do i think i'm a devil (although my ex called me that many time after the 'dumping')... But deep down i think it's mainly because of the way i handled the whol 'ex situation' that i think that i'm not so nice... I can be cruel, especially with men. I have turned some down in brutal way. I am not one for tact. When i say no, it's NO!
Anyway, i'm not entirly sure that i didn't misinterprete the conversation i had with that particular person because i was drunk and he was drunk etc.. But then again, it was a LOT to have misinterpreted...
All in all, i think that i can't really decide whether i'm naughty or nice. I can just let the people i have around me decide for themselves. I don't like being labeled as ONE thing. I'd rather be a bit of both.
And the person who's opinion DOES matter thinks that i seem nice, and he's ready to take on some naughty if that's wat it takes... *sigh and silly grin*
Also, i think i definitely deserve some NICEness from a guy since i've come across so many guys who are bad for me, and have pushed away the few nice ones who were even able to get close to me...
I am NOT usually like this! I've got SO many walls, which are one of the reasons that i've been having these doubts about myself. But somehow he's slowly, patiently, sweetly brushing them aside.
And it feels GOOD!

A bientôt

3 comments:

DeeCee said...

Maybe you should just aim on treating people exactly the way you would like to be treated...

Lady divine said...

I second what Deecee has said....
what you do to others, others will do to you they say..:)

Sort of life, to earn respect, you gotta respect others..:)

best thing is, you know who you're.. some ppl lack this self realisation...

But no ones perfect...:)so I'm sure you could change... and all good things will come back..:)

lucky_me said...

It's so easy to get advice. Bt so hard to actually follow it.. Honesty is something i value. And at least in that way, i'm learning to treat others the way i would like to b treated...

I suppose it sounds like i'm a total BITCH in this post, bt i'm actually NOW :) i DO have my sickly sweet moments ;)