'Faire table rase' is a french expression meaning have a clean plate, start at zero... And this is exactly what i feel like doing!
Out goes the black background and sombre colour scheme of my blog, and in comes the multicolour texts, beautiful beach header (that i captured myself) and lots of happy and positive blogs to make the blog even more colourful!
First of all i'd like to share my 3 new years resolutions. I'm not one who has a track record of keeping resolutions but these seem to be very achievable and i hope that i'd be able to see them through.
1. Drive to work alone by the end of the month (of January)
2. Exercise 15 mins daily (with the option of increasing the duration)
3. Let people talk to me
Despite how hard it is to get oneself motivated to work out, i think that it's my last resolution that will be the hardest to stick to.
The reason behind this particular resolution is my realisation of the fortress that i have built around myself. Slowly, through the years, and the bad experiences that i have had with other people, brick by brick i had created a very solid wall around myself, with a few entrances for a handful of people who, after having won the right to enter, have had access to me completely.
But everyone else, i block out. I seem very social, and open and out-going to the outside world. Little do they know that what they see is only a tip of the iceberg, and in some cases, a chunk of plastic that i use to comouflage the real one!
Therefore my resolution is to let people talk to me, not just the ones I want to talk to but also the ones who want to talk to me!
To let people into my world, at least let them have a little peek into it..
It feels so easy to close up.. I have been closed up for so long, even to people i thought i was opening up to. Like my ex, who saw only what he wanted to see, and who i showed only that...
I don't think this particular trait of mine is something that i singlehandedly developed. I think that 'others' had a hand in the building of the fortress. I am starting to feel lonely in this world that i've created for myself. Especially as the rare ones who hold a key into it, are so very far away...
The bane of humanity is that we are social animals, we crave for others of our own kind. Yet ironically, we are isolated in our thoughts... Our coporeal selves are thrown into a crowd whereas our mental selves are always alone.. It's hard to constantly be alone in a crowd, yet this is what every single human being is cursed to live through for their short life spans.
And as Thomas Wolfe put it "Loneliness is and always has been the central and inevitable experience of every man".
A bientôt
Out goes the black background and sombre colour scheme of my blog, and in comes the multicolour texts, beautiful beach header (that i captured myself) and lots of happy and positive blogs to make the blog even more colourful!
First of all i'd like to share my 3 new years resolutions. I'm not one who has a track record of keeping resolutions but these seem to be very achievable and i hope that i'd be able to see them through.
1. Drive to work alone by the end of the month (of January)
2. Exercise 15 mins daily (with the option of increasing the duration)
3. Let people talk to me
Despite how hard it is to get oneself motivated to work out, i think that it's my last resolution that will be the hardest to stick to.
The reason behind this particular resolution is my realisation of the fortress that i have built around myself. Slowly, through the years, and the bad experiences that i have had with other people, brick by brick i had created a very solid wall around myself, with a few entrances for a handful of people who, after having won the right to enter, have had access to me completely.
But everyone else, i block out. I seem very social, and open and out-going to the outside world. Little do they know that what they see is only a tip of the iceberg, and in some cases, a chunk of plastic that i use to comouflage the real one!
Therefore my resolution is to let people talk to me, not just the ones I want to talk to but also the ones who want to talk to me!
To let people into my world, at least let them have a little peek into it..
It feels so easy to close up.. I have been closed up for so long, even to people i thought i was opening up to. Like my ex, who saw only what he wanted to see, and who i showed only that...
I don't think this particular trait of mine is something that i singlehandedly developed. I think that 'others' had a hand in the building of the fortress. I am starting to feel lonely in this world that i've created for myself. Especially as the rare ones who hold a key into it, are so very far away...
The bane of humanity is that we are social animals, we crave for others of our own kind. Yet ironically, we are isolated in our thoughts... Our coporeal selves are thrown into a crowd whereas our mental selves are always alone.. It's hard to constantly be alone in a crowd, yet this is what every single human being is cursed to live through for their short life spans.
And as Thomas Wolfe put it "Loneliness is and always has been the central and inevitable experience of every man".
A bientôt
1 comment:
'Faire table rase'
I think I'm going to have to borrow that one from you :) it fits perfectly at this time of my life. A big transition.
I'm glad I found you off of "Single-ish" on Glamour. I'm glad I have a curious soul... it allowed me to copy your URL and find your cute little space. xo
i'll visit soon :)
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