Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Version 2.0

Yesterday was my mother's birthday. Unfortunately due to a flood imposed lock down, I wasn't able to get her a Birthday present. She stayed home from work, because she wasn't feeling too well. We went to see a doctor, did some groceries, then went to her cousin's place for lunch. It was a rather unexceptional day, but somehow it left me feeling so happy and positive and full of life. Perhaps it was that i spent some quality time with my family, drawing energy from the unconditional love that flows through families. I honestly don't know. What i do know is that i felt good. So that night i had a conversation with my OSM, she was telling me how she felt lost and overwhelmed with her impending graduation and the start of a new era. I don't know how the conversation got there, but I came up with the idea to start 'pruning our hedges'. Do some gardening in the garden of our lives, our personalities. Rather than worry about the future, prepare ourselves for it. Shake off habits that we don't need and acquire those that we do. Become the version 2.0 of ourselves. She decided to quit smoking. I decided to get more organized. We both decided to stop 'hooking up'. Just a few changes. Just enough to make an impact on our lives. 

We spend so much time, worrying about the future and other people, and how other people see us that we don't realise that what is most important is OURSELVES. The way WE see ourselves. Rather than contemplate a future that is not even in existence, I think the best thing to do, is to BE your future. BE who we want to be in the future. And we don't wait till the 'future' to start working towards that. We don't have to have a job, a man, an appartment, a car to be WHO we want to be. 

I was so pumped up yesterday i could barely sleep. My OSM's grandfather told her that women tend to make plans but never actually act on them, and men on the other hand, act, even without the planning. I think there is a truth to this. I know that I have made many plans, plans that have only remained just that, plans. Nothing has come out of it. But this one, i believe WILL be actionable. I am certain of it. And I have start working on it from this morning! 

Let's see how it progresses. I'm very optimistic because I know that just in case I lag behind in my plan, i have my OSM to remind me, and vice versa. 

So here's to ME version 2.0! Let her be better, more effective and a whole lot more AWESOME! 

A bientôt

4 comments:

Ally said...

best of luck with this, sounds good! x

quote said...

"I think the best thing to do, is to BE your future. BE who we want to be in the future."

This is probably one of the more accurate things I've read about planning the future and doing it well. I always thought that to do well later on, you just have to do things the right way now. Eventually, the good habits continue and you'll "develop" into your future.

Life's a Bee!! said...

Great! I think the 20's is that point in your life when you HAVE TO MAKE changes to yourself to become the person you want to be. So, congrats on realizing that & best of luck reinventing yourself!

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